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Well, I haven’t spoken with Chuck Spears in a minute. I know he recently found a new job, has been working at his comic book art and rekindling his love for spittin’ rhymes. I have not been around here for I have been working hard at building a platform and home base for my book.

Maybe this means that it’s time for this blog needs to go on hiatus – for a while. It’s not a sad thing, because in the process of the both of us contributing here, we have been able to discover or reconnect with our passions. Chuck has always been an artist kind of guy, so I’m happy he’s gotten back in that groove. Me? Well, I’ve already told you about my current venture.

This blog has been important to the both of us throughout the past twelve months. Its been a place to vent and voice our opinions and frustrations on the bullshit that life throws our way. It also gave us an avenue to exercise our minds creatively. I know Chuck has been messing with the blogging world longer than I have, but managing this blog has given me good practice for running the blogsite for my book. Writing on here was also good for knocking the rust off;  I had not touched my book’s manuscript for over a year before Chuck and I founded this blog. When the spark came back to me to pick up working the book again, I was already in some sort of writing shape… kind of.

The biggest thing for me though is that I finally know that I have an answer, a solution to “stop being played”.  This blog was born from me and Chuck’s frustrations with our lives being stuck in a standstill, wondering if things would ever get better due to the career paths we pursued.

Let’s just say over the course of the year, I’ve undergone an attitude adjustment.

“If it is to be, it starts with me.”

While I was attending Morgan State, the chair of the Communication Studies department had us recite that line in one of my classes. I used to think that was corny motivational ploy he was using, but ultimately he’s right. If you feel life is playing you, do something about it. Take some time to analyze yourself and your current life standing. Be honest about your strengths, your weaknesses, and your habits, both good and bad. Understand what truly motivates you, what you are passionate about. Begin to build on that, brick by brick, step by step, regardless if you are single, married or have kids. There are many books and classes that can teach you how to turn your passions into business ventures. But most importantly, before you learn how, you need to first look at yourself. Robert Kiyosaki teaches you how to change your view of money. Dave Ramsey teaches you how to look yourself in the mirror and hold yourself accountable for your actions and your budget. Tim Ferriss implores you to conquer your fears one step at a time as well as how to view time and productivity differently. Susan Orman illustrates how your first childhood interaction with money helps to shape how you view money as an adult. Ramit Sethi, among other things,  specializes in how to position yourself in the best light for various negotiation situations. All of the above named understand that your mind’s thought processes must be changes first before you get to the how.

So then… Off I go to continue on my “how”. I refuse to be played anymore – I will learn to turn the tables in my favor.

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UPDATE: Chuck hit me via text and agrees that a hiatus likely is in order, but has asked me to periodically post on my progress with the book. I will do that, but in the meantime, if you want to check in on our progress, by all means:

BoobieTrapped.com – The video blog for my upcoming book

UngowaSoulPower – Chuck Spears’ blog for his comic book work and rhymin’

Thank you for following our blog for over the past year. We appreciate all the comments, Facebook Likes and page hits!

(even if half of those hits came from me and Chuck, lol)

Has it really been almost a month since I wrote here?

I should feel apologetic, but my lack of action here has not been due to lack of motivation or laziness. In fact, I’ve been very motivated, and rather active.

Pimping a book is hard work. And as you go along the process, you realize that writing the darn thing is barely half the battle. I’ve read on different author resource sites that many writers don’t want to get involved in the business aspect of putting their book out and selling it. The task is daunting, very involved, multifaceted and somewhat complex. Just looking for a quality editor took over three weeks. But I’m happy: the editor understood where I was coming from and combed through every word and sentence. I did not have any concerns over her quality of work because she had the experience.  I knew what kind of qualifications to look for because I had expert advice. Even if my book doesn’t make a dime, I can trust that manuscript will be in top shape.

Like I said, the process is multifaceted – I am approaching this as a business and brand, not a mere hobby.  Here’s the current stages and steps I have mapped out so far.

LLC

My LLC will be in the form of a self-publishing company. Why am I creating a company just to publish a book? Because there are costs: I need a cover designer, interior designer and marketing manager – the latter of the three the most expensive.  From my research, 5K seems to be what’s figured for startup costs. I don’t have 5K, nor do I see myself with the ability to save five-grand before the year is out. Funny thing is, the leader of the RichDadNYC group whose monthly meetings I attend says he didn’t have $5,000 either for the marketing of his book, and he owns more than a handful of rental properties and businesses throughout the country. So he had to get the money somewhere, and he’s a big believer of OPM (Other People’s Money). A business credit line is looking like a good idea.

Manuscript

Last Saturday, I submitted my manuscript to the Library of Congress for copyrighting. Next step is to find a proofreader to make sure my script is pristine. After that, I need to find a cover design and interior designer. Once those are done, then I will look at self-publishing options.

Blog

THE BLOG IS LIVE! THE BLOG IS LIVE!

It is my online home base for operations. The meat of the blog is the video entries, which I will do one per week. I also have a written blog section to talk about the progress of moving from manuscript to paperback/e-book.  It is also my beginning baby steps into the book’s marketing via building up a following.

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I was prepared to say that due to my book venture, and Chuck Spears pursuing his comic book blog, that this blog will take a hiatus. But Chuck Spears came through with a great Father’s Day post, so instead I’ll talk to him about whether to keep things going.

Til next time…

Apologies yet again for the near two-week absence.  Chuck’s been working on some comic book design stuff; you can check his material out here.  As for me, my energies have been pointed in other directions lately.

“This sounds like another excuse, Diggy.”

It is, but just roll with me on this.  It’s hard to write coherently when your mind is other places.  So at least let me share where some of those places are or have been.

Some of you reading this may know that I’ve self-published a book back in 2008.  Some of you also know that I am very much into voluptuous (read: top-heavy) women.  Thus, I wrote a book about my passion – reaching out to other similarly passionate men to help them appreciate such a woman better.  It was a “shits ‘n’ giggles” thing – dipped heavily in guy-humor to reach out to the unsophisticated man.  It was a great experience, but in terms of being able to spread the word effectively, I saw four major problems:

  1. The book was only 27 pages.  Any avid reader could flip through the whole book while in a store without buying it.
  2. I self-edited the book.  As I learned later, it’s very difficult to edit your own words.
  3. I may have laid the man-talk on a little too thick.
  4. A title such as “The Guide for Big Breast Luvas (pronounced ‘luv-ahs'” may be a bit too direct.

So a year later, I began a rewrite of the book.  I knew that in order to give this thing a real shot, I’d have to be more coherent, with research to back up my opinions and thoughts.  the book would need more than 27 pages, which meant it would definitely need a lot more material.  So I spent most of my time during the summer of 2009 working on the book… along with finding a job.  In September I found work, but a funny thing happened: my interest in the rewrite waned.  I was stuck in a career and life crossroads, trying to assimilate back into a “normal” job field after spending more than a decade pursuing a career in radio and TV.

Fast forward two years and another breakup later: I end up reading Rich Dad Poor Dad in August and September.  And wah-lah… I feel not the need to assimilate any longer, which feels even better given than me and the word “assimilate” have always been like oil and water.  Later in September, I meet this dude at a after-hours social who has his own publishing company.  I sent him a couple of my drafted chapters, and at the end of the month we sat down for two hours to talk about how I can improve things.  These two events re-sparked my desire to do the rewrite.  And this time, I had not only a direction, but an inner voice that started to speak something about “true independence”.

As of today, I have all but drafted the entire book.  I’m currently researching editing companies and services because I want my manuscript to be me, but in the best light possible.  The book has become a driving force, because I know there’s an audience for it.  I know the book will educate people on things that are overlooked, as well as things that are not common knowledge yet not hard to understand either (sort of like the radio business).

I know I cannot do this alone – not if it is to be done right.  I need the right people around me to help, people whose strengths are my weaknesses.  I’ll need funding too, but I’m not overly concerned to the point I’d let it stop me.  I truly understand now there is more than one way to skin a cat, and money is not the end all of life… I even say that last line now with more confidence and a new base of knowledge than before, when I would simply duck money because I truly thought it was evil. 

I’ll keep you posted on my progress.  I know I’ve only truly begun the process, but I look forward to solving for “x”.

And by the way, the new title of the rewrite will (tentatively) be Boobie Trapped: One Man’s Guide to a Top-Heavy Love Affair.

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Not related: I hate having a crush.  More on than in another post… maybe.

Every now and then I check out the blog site of Tim Ferriss, author of The Four Hour Workweek.  On his blog, he features a conversation and some material from Ramit Sethi, author of I Will Teach You to Be Rich (both books are New York Times bestsellers, FYI).  On Ramit’s site, he has sections dedicated to his Dream Job products/courses, which has videos that talk about mastering job interviews, negotiating starting salary, how to negotiate a raise, and so on and so forth.  I watched a few of these videos (they’re free); one in particular talks about negotiating salary – something that I’ve never done.  Ramit and one of his Dream Job partners talked about the fears people have about asking for more money – several of which I subscribe to.  But it got me thinking on a deeper level – what am I really afraid of?

In Suze Orman’s book The 9 Steps to Financial Freedom, she talks about confronting one’s earliest childhood memories about the first time money had meaning to that person, particularly if it was a negative experience.  Well, I reached back into my childhood, and the realization I came through didn’t have anything (directly) to do with money, but it was a pretty damning breakthrough altogether:

I’m scared of being wrong and making a mistake…

In fact, it’s not the actual being wrong or acceptance that I will make mistakes – it’s the backlash/consequences of which that scares me.  You know what happens when you grow up as being the “smart one”?  Sure, people recognize you as being smart, but they don’t realize that being smart does not mean you won’t ever be wrong, or that you’ll make a mistake.  And when you do slip up (because yanno, being the “smart one” is in no means equivalent to being perfect), it’s like, “well you’re so smart, how come you didn’t know that?”

Let me give you two adult-life examples:

During my initial summer semester in grad school back in 2003, I hooked up a couple of times with this chick that lived about an hour away from campus.  We had met online through a webcam chat-room service a few months beforehand, and I had told her I was relocating near her way for school.  For the initial engagement, I picked her up and she spent the night in my on-campus apartment.  The second time, I spent the night at her crib after hittin’ the bar for a bit then chowing at Denny’s.  Cool and copacetic, right?

Two days after I came back from her crib, I saw her online and I naturally hit her up… only for her to respond by accusing me of raping her!  She claimed she was technically drunk when we had sex – she had maybe a drink and a half worth of Long Island Iced Tea at the bar in which afterwards we went to Denny’s eat – food sobers you up pretty good from my experiences.  Most importantly, after we got back to her crib, we fell asleep for three-plus hours before waking up to do the damn thing – it certainly was not rape.  Apparently, the woman had a reputation amongst the people who knew her online for being “whorish” and claiming outlandish shit; two nosy broads female chatters had called me to fill me in on the woman’s M.O.  They also said, “Well you’re so smart, you’re dumb…”

Really?

I mean, I never paid attention or sought out gossip on this woman or any other.  So I didn’t have a “complete scouting report” on the lady and I ended up sleeping with someone with rather whorish tendencies – fine, my bad.  Like I’m the only man – smart or dumb – to have done that.

Next example…

About seven months after I moved to Albany, I finally landed a radio gig working in promotions (which soon led me to learning the ropes as a weekend on-air talent).  Quite a few people offered me advice on how to go about my business, but one jock in particular said something that went against how I was raised and the roots of my work ethnic:

Do a good job, but not a great job.  If you do a great job, the first time you do something that isn’t great, people will look at you like ‘what happened?’

That didn’t make sense to me at the time.  Why wouldn’t I want to do a great job, to do my best?    It took me so long to get this chance – I was gonna bust it out no matter what it took.  And I did – except it didn’t matter much when I was fired in seven months for accidentally and unknowingly filling one of the station vehicles with the wrong grade of fuel.  Years  – and many conversations with the radio people I knew – later, I wondered if maybe dude had a point.  In a business that is said to set people up for failure, was it better to keep expectations modest by dumming myself down a bit?  What was the lesson to be learned: that in a business in which you’re sure to make mistakes, any one of which at any time can be cause for a pink slip?  It took me years to get over that.

Looking at the two examples, I guess it could be concluded that I’d be better off not being smart and not wanting to be great.  That way I wouldn’t deal with as much backlash to my mistakes, because not as much would be expected of me.

I can’t do that.  I’d be frontin’ on myself big time.

So if I need to get to where I need to be, I need to get over this fear of making mistakes.  I’ve already tried walking down the “safe, secure” road, and it doesn’t work for me.  I don’t have money for counseling, so I’m going to have to man up and figure out how to overcome it.

So maybe Suze Orman’s bigger point was not just defining a fear that keeps you from being more successful with money, but finding a deep-rooted fear that had been keeping you from being successful period.

Thanks Ms. Orman.

I was telling my brother earlier in the week that when you undertake a venture or project that there will always be risks involved.  The difference in mitigating these risks and overcoming the obstacles you’re sure to face comes down to two factors: knowledge and passion.

The knowledge part is actually a group effort; in the monthly RichDad meetings I attend, the moderator always says “you’ll never know all that you need to know.”  Instead, surround yourself with people that know more about certain things than you do.  Let’s say you’re in the mood for a good taco, but you’ve never made one before.  Sure, you could try to make it yourself, but the risk of failure is higher because like I said, you’ve never made one before.  So instead of knowing how to make one, all you truly need to know is someone – or someplace – that can make a good one.  Some people might say, “well what’s the fun in that?”  Well remember the objective is to enjoy a good taco, not learn how to make one.  If you cannot make a good one, then you find someone or someplace that does.

As far as passion, it was explained to me that the difference between being passionate about an endeavor versus just being in it for the money is that when shit happens (and the moderator, he himself a successful real estate investor, says that “sh*t” will happen), your passion will push you past the trials and tribulations.  If you’re in it for only the money, you’ll likely drop out at the first sign of trouble.  Put it this way: Magic Johnson, who made millions playing in the NBA and was one of the all-time greats, was once quoted as saying he loved basketball so much he would’ve played for free.  I write because I want to, because this is the best and most constructive way I can express myself and share my thoughts with whomever chooses to read.  Would I like to make a dollar someday off my writings? Of course – it’d be nice.  But I do this because it’s an extension of me, and I know Chuck Spears feels the same way.

Some people know I had been volunteering to be Editor-In-Chief for a start-up urban-based website.  I believed it was a great opportunity for me to manage a group of other potential writers, motivate them, and be able to shape the content that would help fuel this site.  The results, so far, have been inconsistent participation by people who volunteered to write but were not passionate about writing.  A few were able to understand what was being asked of them, but overall we might have overestimated people’s level of participation.  When you have something new and shiny, you ask for help to put it together, and you get a lot of “yeah/sure/I’m down” answers at the start.  But when it’s time to put in the real work, those that were so hyped start disappearing or end up having a bunch of “personal issues” that block them from doing what is asked.  It’s one thing if you’re used to commenting on articles and posts, but being asked to create an article or story to post is a completely different task.

Originally, when I first signed onto this project, I was under the impression I would be managing people who were tasked with pulling content/genre-appropriate content from other sites and reposting it.  The Media Director then asked for writers to create articles, and wanted a writing staff of six.  I recruited accordingly from the site’s forum posters because I wasn’t coming out of my own pocket to create ads on craigslist and such. In hindsight, maybe we should’ve stuck with the pulling-from-other-sites idea.  This though is correctable, but now there’s an even bigger problem: it looks as if everything has been blown to hell because of poor planning and a lack of trust between the lead admin and the other admin/staffers.

This past Thursday evening, the admins and myself had a lengthy phone conference about this lack of trust.  The person accused of such had been coined as someone who had been “power-tripping” (remember, we’re all volunteers).  After navigating through some harsh and childish rhetoric (with me letting them know that such talk was unproductive), we seemed to had found common ground and had begun to move the conversation onto ideas to retool the site and provide the type of content that could keep visitors coming back.  I had to excuse myself from the conference at around 11:30pm after being on the horn for three hours – but at least I left feeling good about all of us getting back to addressing the needs of the site, though no definite decisions were made.

Image my shock on Friday evening when the site’s homepage was gone and replaced with some generic bullshit.  Like umm, where the hell are the articles we posted?  Where’s our graphics and images?  What the fuck?

I was asked to give my input towards a petition for the site owner to step in and take control of the discord.  Here’s what I wrote (hash-tags replacing said person’s name for protection):

“We all had a phone conference on February 9th to discuss ### taking a more active role within the Media Departments.  It was slated to be a tinychat web conference, but there was a lot of disagreement over ### “requiring” all media staff (including writers and video editors) to be present.   We argued that such gathering was unnecessary; I added that it would have been impossible on such short notice.

The most telling thing I observed during the phone conference is when changes are needed, ### doesn’t appear to consult with the parties involved in the areas in question.  If there are problems within a department, the prudent thing to do is to talk to the managers in said dept to gather information on what’s going on, combine this with your own observations, compare and contrast what was seen and said, and then propose courses of action.  From what ### stated in the conference, he seems to base his decisions and proposals sorely on his own observations. In my humble opinion, he needs to observe and talk to his people – us – for the sake of him making a better, informed decision.”

SirDiggy
Editor-In-Chief

With no home page, there’s no place for the remaining writers to post their articles.  If the writers aren’t active, they could easily say “screw this shit – we’re out”.  With no active writers and no home page to oversee for content, I honestly don’t have shit to do or a reason to do it.

Lastly – where the hell is the site owner?  The money he’s putting out for the project is at severe risk of being flushed down the crapper, and he’s “away”?  This is a startup project with not a heck of a lot of people involved.  As the owner, you need to be hands-on until the project becomes completely self-sustainable.  You need to make sure your vision is executed, and you need to make sure your people are on the same page and communicating effectively.

I hate to see something with a lot of potential get trashed before it truly gets started.  We’ll see what the end game to this nonsense transpires to.  That’s part of business and risk, I suppose.

The title of this entry sounds very brave, brazen and heroic, doesn’t it?

Personally, I hate when people make such new year mantras like “This is my year!” because I’m skeptical that the people saying that will truly commit to making the changes necessary – or maybe the people I heard say it, I knew they were playing themselves.  Have they really sat down and reviewed their past year and resolved not to fall into the same bullshit habits or associate with the same bullshit people?  Or better yet, have they realized it is themselves that are the main producers of said bullshit?

My gym sends me weekly emails to I suppose keep me motivated towards a healthier lifestyle (I suppose).  The last email they sent was an end-of-year self-evaluation questionnaire from examiner.com.  The email explained it as follows:

“…the benefits of the end-of-year review offer us “lessons learned” from those situations that may have not turned out as we might had hoped and those that did. Something is always working in our favor – we just need to discover what it is…”

Soooooo… in the spirit of self-reflection, I ask you to read along as I will attempt to answer this questionnaire fully and honestly.  The questionnaire consists of 20 questions; my answers are in blue


  • What were my resolutions or goals for 2011?  I stopped making New Years’ resolutions after junior high school.  In fact, I think the last time I made a resolution, I was at the Museum of Natural History with my brother and grandmother.  A reporter from ABC-7 came up to ask me my resolution, and I replied, “to be more sarcastic!”
  • What were my greatest accomplishments for 2011 that I am most proud of? That I finally made some changes to my life to put me on a better path of better long-term goals.  I have new-found direction and resolve.  Oh yeah, and starting this blog with Chuck Spears, of course!
  • Now, what was one more? I learned I’m fine with eating two or three chocolate chip cookies instead of five or six.
  • What are the actions I took to achieve these accomplishments? Well, it started with my ex-girl breaking up with me, which wasn’t an action I took on my own, but eventually led to my learning of what makes a person wealthy, and why budgeting is so important. 
  • What strengths did I tap into to be able to take these actions? They say cocaine is a helluva drug – so is motivation.  Thankfully, I only subscribe to the latter.
  • How can I apply these strengths to move forward in 2012? It’s all about dedication and time management, baby.  Gotta continue to improve both.
  • What did I intend to do in 2011 that did not get done? Well given that I had no set goals coming into the years, I can’t say that there wasn’t anything I didn’t get done.  See what happens when you set the bar low?  Anything positive is considered success! LOL
  • What were the biggest challenges or barriers I faced in 2011 that contributed to not accomplishing everything I wanted? This should be a straightforward question, but what if your goals and mindset changed during the year, thus your realize new challenges and barriers for the road ahead?  Let’s table this for 2012 where I’ll have more definitive goals and barriers for such.
  • How did I deal with each of these? Again, let’s table this for 2012 and come back to it
  • Where do I get my strength to overcome barriers? Six months ago I probably would said a couple cans of Pepsi, but I’ve been laying off the soda since September.  Now, I know the answer to be knowledge, self-confidence and God.  That’s the basis of what I’ll need for this coming year.
  • How have I grown from these accomplishments and challenges? I’ve realized that being not-quite-as-fat and happy is a really good alternative to being fat and happy.  I’ve tackled a long time hatred and fear of mine – exercising – and begun to see the positive results of it.  See any of my Pain & Agony vs Fat & Happy posts.
  • What am I most grateful for as I reflect back on the year?  Family and friends, but everyone’s pretty much grateful for that – too cliché.  I did however visit Miami for the first time back in April – let’s go with that. 
  • What have I learned? To accept the fact that despite having a B.S. and an M.S., that I still pretty much know nothing.  And I learned how to explain this to my family so every time I don’t know something, they can stop responding via saying “didn’t you learn that in college?”
  • Who are my greatest supporters or support systems that I can rely on as I move forward? Those who understand me and are in the same or similar boat.  It’s a small circle, but they say networking is all about finding like-minded people.  Thank God for the Internet – for real though.
  • How can I show my gratitude and appreciation to those who have supported me? How about a cold one?  A holiday card? Well probably by at least staying in touch.
  • What would I like to be different in the upcoming year? Lot’s of things – improved credit rating, increased traffic for the blog, finish writing my book, get my best friend on board with this investment and money educational process, take a trip, have an emergency piggy bank (courtesy of Dave Ramsey’s teachings), and help this site take off as its Editor-in-Chief.  Oh, and to see the Knicks make a playoff run this year!
  • What would it feel like to experience this difference? Maaaannnn – it’ll be all types of awesomeness.  New progress; real progress; to once again succeed in doing the things I enjoy.  Maybe I’ll even make a buck or two!
  • What am I willing to do to make this change a reality? Mindset, baby!  Actually, I’ve already started, but see the next question…
  • What barriers do I anticipate and what strategies can I put into place to overcome these barriers? Fear, overcoming existing expectations that are not mine, and maybe family.  It’s hard when those who share your blood don’t share your brains and vision.  As for fear, I’ll put it in the hands of a coke and rum God and continue to educate myself.  Once I succeed, we can erase those expectations – or at least tell my dad, “see, if I wasted my years dying a slow death by being a math teacher I would have never had the time to write or help admin a website or learn about investing”.
  • What is the first step I need to take to get closer to my goals? Lay off the Big Macs and Whoppers – have you seen the calorie count on one of those meals??  No seriously though, continue to take baby steps and learn.  Work to not get too ahead of myself, and not get too discouraged if things temporarily fail.

Test-icular Fortitude

Posted: November 30, 2011 by sirdiggy in career news, job, life
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It’s 7:46am – too early in the day for me, but after the bullshit of being at work by 7am for that stupid car rental place in June, I can deal with it for one day.  Plus it good to test myself once in a great while to make sure I can function this time of morning.

Anyways, I have to take an MTA exam in Brooklyn at 9:30am, and I did not want to go over budget (which I still might, anyways) by paying $9 for a peak-hr Metro-North train into midtown.  So I mapped out a local bus-to-subway yesterday and got up extra early to allow for more time.

It’s now 8:02am and I’m safely aboard the 4 train going to Brooklyn.  MTA’s online trip planner says it’ll take 58 minutes, but I’ve been hung up enough times traveling down Lexington Ave to know better.  I’ll be happy if the trip takes an hr and 15 min.

Speaking of the MTA, this exam is for counting ridership or tracking times of trains and buses at various intervals – I forget.  Either way, I can’t say I’m excited.  In my being dumped by my ex (August) and subsequent awakening from my career depression in September, I know now I do not want to work for a bureaucratic institution where I’m just a cog.  But alas, I’m living at home with a mother still primarily stuck in the old school way of thinking (work somewhere for 25+ yrs even if u don’t care for the job).  So taking this exam is a good show of “I’m looking for a ‘real’ job”. 

It’s not that I can’t use the extra income – I can.  But I’ve become huge on measuring money vs time vs energy vs headache.  Too many jobs do not pay enough for the time, energy and headache they require, and these days businesses feel as if they don’t have to try all that hard to disguise this.  The job I have now, while it alone never allow me to move, it does allow me to have the time to develop my financial knowledge base as well as work on how to put together my long term goals.  It’s like self-training, but instead of paying to learn, I’m getting paid while learning.

So back to today – it’s 8:37am and the 4 just pulled into midtown manhattan. Safe to assume that barring a mechanical problem or emergency, this train will be in Brooklyn in 20 minutes or so.  Which will give me time to get a coffee – something I rarely drink but I feel I will need help staying awake and energized.  Though I don’t sweat these types of exams, I like to be alert so I can do my best.  So what if I score well and they call me in for the job?  Will I take it?

The short answer is yes – if I have no better options and the job allows enough money for me to save and move out.  The longer answer is to continue my newfound path of enlightenment and work towards having better options available if and when that time comes.

9:24am: Approaching test site with coffee in hand.  Wish me luck (?)

I am really not a morning person.